When things begin to go all out of sorts… there is usually a reason.
When we begin to blame or look down upon everyone else around us, usually they are not the reason.
We are. What a relief that is, huh? What a revelation that is? Because we can control how we will respond and we cannot control or change those around us and how they will respond… no matter how hard we try.
After the exhausting wrestle with myself, a wrestle that I usually do not win, a beautiful revelation and clarity revealed itself. Is this making sense to you yet or am I speaking in general terms where certain puzzle pieces just aren’t fitting?
Let me give you an example.
The past couple of weeks has derailed me. Certain triggers have precipitated it for sure, but the overall issue encompasses all of the reasons as to why I fell.
As a pregnant woman now, I’m changing at such a rapid rate and because of that I am resisting the change and discomfort and isolating myself from everyone and even myself.
Once this kind of clarity was revealed to me through my husband, after throwing a dang crying fit in the car on my way to our dinner date… what felt like a 10-ton weight lifted off and away from my soul. I could breathe again. I couldn’t breathe for a week and I could inhale and exhale with no anxious thoughts. It’s like I was underwater, lost, and trying to find my way out of the dark coral cave. And with the loving prompting of the Spirit, it’s like I fell into new skin, the right and lovely type of skin. The true and called type of new identity.
I’m being shaped and carved, which feels faster than the speed of light, and I have a choice. To stay in the dark coral cave in hiding and fear or I can swim out of it and embrace the unknown and newness of becoming a different version of Kelly. I chose to embrace. If we are given that choice to stay in hiding or to embrace discomfort, we should always choose to embrace. Because discomfort means growth toward something better or toward something more meaningful and embraces means beauty and joy.
Which option would you choose? Or shall I dive at a deeper level, where are you right now? In the cave? OR walking straight ahead, head held high, embracing the uncertainty of the future. Let me give you a hint, choose the path that gives you life.